Most probably One last time!

Most probably
I'll breathe my last breath today
Most probably
This stone heart will pump a gallon of red wine today

Most probably 
I'll sing a song for myself 
Most probably 
I'll smoke the cigarette down to the filter 
For one last time
My tear would lick the wounds of yesterday's pimples

Most probably 
This would be my last poetry

Dear Mama
Tree of this black coffee bean
The first drop of milk
My own breasts
Dear Mama
Let's recreate the Pietà
Hold my lying flesh
Between your laps
Scream my name out
Wash my stinking wounds with your tear

Dear sparrow
Whistle my last poetry in whispers
To the deaf word
To the people I loved
Then
Hang yourself in this big fig
Be the next to my grave

Dear friend 
Embrace my chunk of guilt and regret 
Sing that song we used to sing
At our downs
And at our highs

Dear friend 
Please bring the guitar 

Dear diary
My demon
My dear sperm, my innocent child
Please hide yourself 
Please fucking do that 
Please fucking do that

For the one last time
My dear self
Fucking kiss on your mirror
Turn around and see your black ass
For the one last time

Most probably 
I would breathe my last air molecules 
Most probably 
I would sit on this commode 
Yeah     
Most probably 
One last time!

- Hajan Anbunathan -